Suppose a catastrophe was about to happen, and that you prayed and said mantras in order to avert it. Suppose then that you saw many Buddha and Chenrezi images and statues in a totally unexpected context, and that an event occurred to avert the catastrophe. That would be something that would make you think wouldn't it? Such a thing happened to me. A friend of mine was taking me to some good jazz, which I was looking forward to, but at one point he essentially listed what he expected to do at the club, and it involved us "washing down a couple of beers." For some reason my mind started playing with that, and thinking, well I've had enough meditative training that I might be able to drink a beer for social reasons without it leading down the inevitable path of self-destruction. This thought scared me enough to pray to the Lama and say mantras. The desire was still there as we were waiting for the subway, and suddenly the thought occurred to me that my playing with the thought to drink so obsessively was itself a sign that I was not going to be able to drink normally.
I kept saying mantras, and then my brother called, and it was awesome because he said he would come with me to the club, and I was able to tell him on the phone that I wasn't going to drink anything, in front of my other friend. Such a silly thing it seems, but it was tremendously important at the time. Right after that, we passed multiple shops with Buddhist statues in the window, and it seemed totally natural to me, and yet it was totally unexpected, because these were statues in the Tibetan tradition: statues of the Buddha, statues of Chenrezi. The odds of coming across such a thing are pretty slim, actually. It felt to me like the seal on the blessing that allowed my brother to unknowingly come to my rescue like that.
This reminds me of something I've heard multiple times in A.A. Everyone, at some point, the saying goes, will have no defense against that first drink, and such a defense must come from a higher power. It is amazing how closely my experience fits this general mold. I am not about to try to figure out how this happens to Christians, Jews, Hindus, Muslims, Buddhists etc. Clearly it does. The fact that all of these religions seem inconsistent is irrelevant to the true practitioner I think.
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I am proud to have been of service.
Good to hear from you after "Musings on Pot" stayed up so long. And thanks to Lama Chenrezi you're still with us.
jb
Ha ha. Gosh, I hadn't thought about how that might look! You probably thought I had gotten back into the whole drug and alcohol thing. The title "Musings on Pot" has a nice double meaning. It could mean musing about the substance, or it could mean musing while under its influence. The post might have seemed to be a bit of both, but in fact I haven't smoked any pot in almost five years. Anyway this whole experience has really deepened my faith in the immediacy of the Buddhist path, and really to any spiritual path, since such experiences are experienced by people of all types.
I have witnessed on several occasions a relapse preceded by a change in tone of the person toward alcohol. Suddenly it's not quite such a bad thing, and then boom! relapse.
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